Today is the first day I put as my Facebook status “I am happy!”
My main new year’s resolution for 2010 was invest emotional energy only where it will be reciprocated and multiplied. Vigorously sticking to this resolution so far has made my life a lot better (I’ve also lost 35 pounds but this post isn’t about that). Every day I am investing my emotional energy in: -using nutrition & fitness to continually enhance my physical well being; feeling strong absolutely rocks!-recruiting for the better food bandwagon (put down the processed food, folks)
-discovering wonderful new (usually young) artists whose work helps me understand myself
-stimulating & managing the team of creative people who are turning our new loft apartment into an environment that will stimulate and sustain, not contain
Having a new puppy has also helped put things into perspective! And made me wonder if there’s anything she won’t eat. I finally realized I was investing myself in people and activities that are incapable of repaying me. Hell, they couldn’t even acknowledge my contribution. I embraced this insight and put all that thankless stuff on the proverbial back burner. That burner is now on a tiny Sterno stove located in a thicket not yet mapped by Google. I aspire to be at all times equanimous, a word a lot of people don’t know (it was new for me too). It means even-tempered - in layman’s terms, similar to unflappable but less about “being good in a crisis” and more about just letting go of stuff that doesn’t matter. Collected, composed, that kind of thing. It’s incredibly liberating to discard the expectation that you’ll get back the time and energy you point at something or someone. And gratifying to invest energy where it will be reflected back and maybe even multiplied.
Many amazing people inspired me to find and walk this path. You know who you are and I thank you.
I’m a little embarrassed it took me so long to get here. Maybe this will encourage you to take the idea for a spin yourself. Or, if you believe in it, encourage someone else!
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